Frustration.
That has been my main feeling for the past couple of weeks. Things pile up, and as much as I try to laugh about it and be happy, I just cannot find the joy out of my situations. Whether it be my living situation which is slowly killing my spirit, my grades and teachers which try to degrade me (and my classmates) in any way possible, or just the nuisances of every day life. And the fact that all my close friends are in NY for the spring break isn’t really helping me (although I’m really happy they aren’t in this shit city).
8 people do not fit in a one story, 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom house.
It just doesn’t work. It is spring break and I should be relaxing and enjoying this jubilant time but instead I’m constantly kicked out of different rooms in the house, and can’t read an exceptional Paulo Coelho book without hearing yelling, cackling, or the horrid indian channel. Even with doors closed.
The word “teacher” now has a whole new meaning. What happened to people wanting to help others gain more knowledge and learn to use it, instead of forcing down information that no one understand and not giving anyone the light of day or right attitude to motivate us? The bad economy is not an excuse for this one.
People around me have become just plain bothersome. There are those select few that I can never get tired of, but for everyone else, I swear I’ve had it up to here (holds hand out horizontally slightly above head).
For example, tomorrow my sister and I were planning to go to Six Flags. It used to be a family tradition of ours but we haven’t been in three years, so we decided to make a trip ourself. Tickets are cheaper online, and we have this AAA account which makes it even cheaper. Only problem is, my genius 4.0 school-involved scholarly sister can’t remember any of the info she put in, even the secret question to “what city were you born in?” It’s driving me a little bit insane, and proves my point that if you make excellent marks in school, how much of that really matters in the real world? Numbers are numbers. But knowing how to use things, speak to others, and general knowledge of life is immensely important.
I could go on and vent my heart out but I’m rather tired, and need some chocolate to soothe me.
Hopefully my sister will be home soon so I can tell her that she isn’t sleeping until she figures out the AAA deal.
Goodday all,
I plan to make the next post slightly more cheerful.
